Monday, May 19, 2014

❤LOVE Never Felt So GOOD & I DOUBT if it ever COULD.❤

And this morning I got to see my precious  baby once again.❤ she's almost two pounds .. such a big girl.!!!   I can't wait to meet my little princess      #blessed   #fortunate   #happy   and super thankful for such a beautiful blessing ... GOD  has been so good to me . * I'm all  smiles *❤

I'm A firm believer that Being blessed don't mean necessarily having the " material things " in life , its about happiness , good family, supportive friends & just trusting GOD all the time & being happy with yourself and all your accomplishments big or small . Good morning GOD is Good ALWAYS.❤

My son Edward with his Soccer Buddies. They had a great game .❤

Seasons come & go... True love does not

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments....

After a while you learn the subtle difference
 between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
 And you learn that love does not mean leaning
 and that company does not mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts 
 and presents aren’t promises.
And you begin to accept your defeats 
with your head up and your eyes open
with the grace of an adult 
and not the grief of a child.
 And you learn to build all your roads today
 because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,
 and the future has a way of falling down 
 in mid flight.
After awhile you learn that sunshine burns 
if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate you own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you are strong and you have worth.
And you learn and learn.
With every good bye you learn.
And with every hello.   by-Jorge Borges

Monday, April 28, 2014

My Man Candy Monday Edward.... My World & The Love Of My LIFE . =) 

when  you receive  the love & understanding  you give, its a #beautiful thing.

My son makes me laugh out aloud  with the cute little things he says.

 Learned to be happy without a reason. Because if you only know how to be happy with a reason, that reason can be taken away from you.#BLESSED  

Never question the journey.. The path you're on is for a reason.

Life passes by so fast, so do what makes you happy.Thank you Lord for another beautifully wonderful day
Good Morning Beautiful People  =)

 I hope our future Daughter is just like Wednesday Adams... Too smart/witty/clever beyond her years.

Its been a long time since someone looked at me that way. Its like you knew me and all the things I couldn't say.

Thank you lord for being so great and wonderful, and most of all thank you for your  Unconditional   #Love    #patience , #mercy , & for everything you have done to bring me this far . I'm nothing without you & everything with you . No Weapon  Formed Against Me  Shall Prosper.
I'm More Than A Conqueror  Thanks To You  Jehovah  Jireh , My Alfa & Omega the beginning and the end .  Yours Truly    #lacosta  

                                    Had A Blessed , Peaceful kinda Fun Weekend .

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

♥For the love of my life ... My Son Edward ♥

Dear Son ,
I just wanted to take this moment to express the joy it is to have you for a son and how lucky I've been to be able to love you and see you grow and learn new things as time passes by . I guess i just want to keep
you small and lovable for as long as I can. But then I realize with every passing moment  that I'm  learning  something new about you , and with every age and stage you become more independent & sharp as pencil  something I truly admire of you. As I discover you I find myself discovering myself and how attached  Iam to your heart because you're my heart .♥
You see, I've Learned  that  growing up is part of life  and no matter how much i would love to keep you young  you must grow strong , healthy  and independently . I guess it's not so bad that you're actually getting older and besides that's the way god intented things to be . Sweetheart , I  feel truly blessed and fortunate to have such a funny, loving,  silly , smart little booger like you  ( smiles)...  your  innocent ways is what make this journey worth while and I  love every single minute of it!!! ....   I' am and always will be proud of you.I hope you know that   pure joy is what I experience  everyday. There is never a dull moment with you .I thank my dear god every day for you . I LOVE YOU  Edward A. Rayford Jr , And thank you so much for choosing me as your mother . You are the joy that I will carry in my heart forever more, & may your life be blessed with many great things . You are an Amazing, Smart And Important Human Being .
 I Love You Son,

The moment You Were Born I Realized The Most Important Thing And Needed To Do And  The Best Job I Would Have In Life, Was Being A Mom. You're mom =) 

                                         My Life is blessed with something Beautiful ... Edward =) 

'My Precious Edward , You made me see that I was suddenly able to love harder than ever and loving someone else more than myself, was my destiny.
'Thank you for bringing so much joy into my life. I love you more than I ever thought possible, or that I ever could've imagined.  'You are where my journey began, you are my heart. I love you so very much, Mommy.'

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

"She’s a diamond in an ocean of coal"

I grew soo much over the past year. I learned what was Real and what was fraud. I'm still in the process of overcoming the coldest year of my life. Year of change. Year of lessons learned.

“The biggest heart break to see in the modern world is the rich crying over money have , and the poor being happy with the money they don’t have”

Your past is just a story . Once you realize this, it has no power over you.

even the strong can feel loneliness , sadness, and emptiness and yet the soul is brave enough to endure it  . Lacosta.

“I’m the vision you’ve never seen. I’m the art you don’t know what to call.”

Real and raw emotions composes DOPE timeless music. Music that doesn't tell a story wont be replayed 10 years from now.

A female who knows her power to destruct , is a female all men should fear.

  I haven’t been this happy and relaxed in awhile. I can’t say I’m not a little bit surprised that It’s because of you.

                                                            No suprise in my Eyez.

Just because is expensive doesnt mean that its good. and just because its good doesnt mean is expensive.


I have a LOVE affair With Myself.

Beat it proud single lady. MJ + B + Tina Turner BIG  fan of Beyonce ,  that shit is amazing !!

I dare you to touch my soul.

Ain’t no such thing as having too many shoes

You only know what I choose to show you. Don’t get shit twisted.

Just a regular girl

I lied. There is NOTHING regular about me. I’m not better than anyone, but I also know that I’m absolutely different.

Her Cold, Gold Soul ....

“The only time the soul is awake is when you are in love. We are creatures of love not destruction. Our minds are fragile and easily drawn to temptation but our hearts are strong especially when we are loved. We must let go of the ego, it will only stunt the growth of the mind and drown the soul. 

I’m not from here.

I’m sure most of us feel this way. A feeling of separation washing over us every single moment of every human day. The truth is, we are not from here. We’re a beautiful creation. A hybrid. This feeling of going astray and confusion tend to consume each and every one of us. Only the truth will release us from this sleep, let us wake by one.

                                                                                       Kiss Me Where It Hurts.


 I do not want to be touched by somebody who will judge my past. That I am not a tally book, with others’ names burned into me. If you have to label me as something, let it be a human being.

“I am convinced that different people awaken  different beasts in you.” 

“The only time the soul is awake is when you are in love. We are creatures of love not destruction. Our minds are fragile and easily drawn to temptation but our hearts are strong especially when we are loved. We must let go of the ego, it will only stunt the growth of the mind and drown the soul. 

“You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who had ever been alive.”

she's something new, something hopeful, like spring to my deep winter.

“Energy, like you, has no beginning and no end. It can never be destroyed. It is only ever shifting states.”

“Be so full of Love and Light that nothing can bother your inner peace.”

After years of studying the rhythm of your heartbeat, you tell me to focus on a new topic,
After years of memorizing every inch of your skin, I am forced to find a different muse,
Well I have news for you,
After years of engraving passion with my nails on your back
I’ve realized your scars will not heal overnight either.

“We all have the seeds of love in us.We can develop this wonderful source of energy, nurturing the unconditional love that does not expect anything in return.”

                                                                      damn this is deep and truthful ..  BALANCE!

We don't realize that somewhere within us , there exist a supreme self who is eternally at PEACE.

The Universe is not punishing you or blessing you, the Universe is responding to the vibrational attitude that you are emitting.”

“Although I live in the swine and mark of the dark ages. Although I stumble in the thick black fog of materialism, the tradition of mediation is waiting and we are drunk with spiritual pride. It’s as if the earth has lost its wisdom. This is the time of hell on earth, sadness is always with us and the unseizing depression fills our mind.”

                                                          It was all a lie

Growing up I was deprived of all things. I didn’t have much, I had way too little. I was lacking the normal human interaction and affection to begin with. So I grew up entirely independent, distrusting, detached and isolated myself from everyone. As I grew up I became more ambitious, driven to change the negative aspect of my personality and flip it into something positive. I wanted to have everything. I grew up in a society where Money is a deity, a false God. Immediately I was disgusted at how easily my generation was manipulated. Religion and Money are the weapons of mass destruction..I am so appalled. I’ve been chasing a dream of wealth and power to only realize it’s the only thing stunting human growth. I’m almost thankful I’ve discovered the truth so early in my life…